Oh, By the Weigh | Dec 23, 2011

Tis the Season

The scale, again, was not my friend this morning. But I'm totally OK with that. Cause I know exactly why. Too many yummy cookies and bread in the house. Tis the season I suppose. And I think I have it in the back of my head that I'm really going to kick this into high gear come the first of the year. Maybe not the healthiest mindset. And I really don't want to be gaining weight at all. But, the fact is I'm not being totally unhealthy and I feel pretty good. I've been getting in activity every day...usually more than once a day. I'm only having a boozey drink about once a week. I'm eating fruits and veggies. And most importantly, when I pick up that cookie I know exactly what I'm doing. I know if I eat that cookie, I'm not going to lose weight this week. It's pure science...and I'm not beating myself up about it, I'm not convincing myself that just this one cookie won't matter and then be upset by what I see later on the scale. It is what it is.

But. BUT. but, I know things have to change if I want to be successful. I keep asking myself: What is going to change on that magical day: Jan 1, 2012. The fact is I will be the same person with the same circumstances. And something has to change if I'm going to lose the weight. Yes, there will be fewer cookies in the house. But there will always still be temptations. I'm going to have to make a change. I know that.

So, I have to figure that out. I want to reach my next goal. It's been awhile.

Success came pretty easy before...at least it feels that way now. I just need to get back there.

Things I'm going to do this week to get back to that place of success:

• Track All Week - I have not been doing this at all. Tracking works! And it's not that hard. Just do it. No excuses. 
• Go back and read my blog when I first started - I need to remember what worked for me. Go back to those basics. 
• Start planning my meals - I always thought that I didn't plan my meals...but in a way I did. I went to the grocery store and bought the food I was going to eat in the upcoming week. I was planning my meals.
• Activity, activity, activity - I need to keep moving. It makes me feel so much better. And I want to try to get two "runs" in this week.
• Continue to Lose the Booze
• Keep checking in with Habit Streak - I want to do a full post on this later. I really think the idea of streaks is a great thing for me.

And most importantly, focus on this idea: I just need to make Good/Healthy decision MOST of the time...

Current Weight: 187.0

Week In Review: A Little Reframing Needed

I got a little obsessed this week...with the scale. After last week's confusing weigh in I was having high anxiety about getting on the scale again. And all the sudden my week became about Friday morning and what I could do to make sure the number went down again. In the back of my head I didn't really think it was possible. I still think last week's 5.8lb lost was a little bit of a fluke...plus I'm about to get my period and I think I'm retaining water from some super intense workouts this week. I was pretty sure when I stepped on the scale again I was going to weigh more than 195.6 lbs. There were a couple days during the week where I wasn't sure I was ready for that. I had been doing everything right...why was the scale going to punish me now with a gain?

And that's when I realized I need to focus on something other than the scale and my weigh in. Those 60 seconds I spend on the scale on Friday mornings should not totally consume my entire week. I need to stay focused more on my healthy decisions...what I'm doing to put me first...the great moments I have and how good I'm feeling...you know all the stuff that happens every other second of the week. So my WI blog posts are no more. I'm still going to do a post at the end of the week and it will include my current weight. But it's not going to be all about that number. I'm going to recap my last week and lay out some goals for the next week. I've seen a few other bloggers do this (especially *Bitch Cakes*) and I think it is a great idea!

Moments of Brilliance:

• I tracked all week - and felt like I ate better this week than I have in awhile.

• I worked out 6 out of the 7 days this week. Friday night I was even able to run for ten minutes. Which is something I don't really remember doing in a while. I have managed to keep my workouts pretty varied and I'm not killing myself everyday. I have a couple intense workouts, but also take it easy some nights. I feel like I'm finding a good balance with my workouts. I am getting stronger and stronger, but I'm not completely exhausted and can actually get out of bed in the morning.
• I have started posting on the WW message boards and commenting on other people's blogs. And I have started to tell more friends about my get-healthy goals. I think it's important to have a community around me to help and encourage me. I think in the past I have been ashamed of being overweight. I never let people know I was trying to loose weight and get healthier because that meant admitting to them that I wasn't perfect.
• Saturday night I dragged my friend to a Roller Derby bout in Yonkers. I've never been, but a another friend of mine joined a league this Fall and she suggested I should check it out. We drove to Yonkers, had dinner at Bella Havanna and then went to the bout. It was interesting to say the least. But once we called my friend to get a quick run-down of the rules it was actually fun to watch. Here are some photos from the night. 

Mojitos at Bella Havana

Suburbia Roller Derby Brawl v. LIRR

 Looking Forward - Goals and Exciting Things Coming Up

• I want to make sure I track everyday this week. I know it just makes me feel more in control of the situation, and even when I feel like things are not going exactly as they should be I can look back and see what good decisions I have made. 
• Workouts - Monday and Thursday are going to be my intense workouts this week. 20 minutes on the Arc Trainer / 20 minutes on the stairclimber / 20 minutes on the bike
• I want to run for at least one mile this week on the treadmill. 
• Focus on drinking water. There are days I just forget to drink it and I can tell. Need to stay hydrated. Makes me feel so much better. 
• Don't focus on the scale and my weigh-in day.

Current Weight: 199.2 lbs